Connecting With Me

In my newfound safety

Of my quiet bubble

Where no one whispers harsh cruelties

And there is only love

I write

I find my connection again

The way I did as a child

But this time

Out of love

Not hatred

This time

I write what comes to me

And let it flow out of me

Allowing my thoughts to be

What they are

No longer afraid of how others will take me

Because I've already walked that path

And it was futile

So now I hide away the way I like to

The way that soothes me

And I just

Write

I write

And people can take me or leave me

That's how I like it

Not trying to convince anyone that I'm worthy

Or right or wrong

Just that I am

And this is me

People have always tried to mold me

To their versions of me

Who I should be

Who I could be

If only

I were different

I am different

I am so different

I refuse to be taken in by anyone

Because while I can guarantee that I can relate to you

I can't guarantee

That you can relate to me

So I take my space

I take my distance

I take my peace

I'm sick of being misunderstood and misinterpreted

The thoughts in my brain are too big to explain in any given moment

My experience of this earth is too profound to put into words most of the time

So I write

I write

Because in writing

I discover who I am 

Devoid of everyone else's input