Pivot

I feel

Pain

Stagnation

Stuckness

I feel

Other people's feelings

I've spent so much of my life

Worrying

About what other people are thinking and feeling

And doing

Behind the facade they present

I don't care anymore

People think that loving

Is overextending yourself

Nagging

Begging

Pleading

You won't find me doing any of the above

I see more than I want to

I feel more than I want to

And I've learned

It's almost never received

But in rare beautiful moments

I can connect

With someone else

Who can see and hear and feel me

And that feels like magic

I don't need

What other people reach for

Nor do I want it

What I want

Is something different

That's always been within me