Finding Connection

I've noticed

That people have this tendency

To either believe 

In something specific

Or to be sure

That everything is meaningless

I've ran in enough circles to see

That no matter the ideology people subscribe to

This variance still exists

I think it's fascinating

The way people need things

To be one or the other

When you discover your connection to the universe

You think you might be god incarnate

And it's because

You are

But so is everyone else

Does that make it less meaningful?

Does that make you less powerful?

Do you need to be better than others

In order to matter?

Or is it possible

To just

Exist

In all the glory that you are

Alongside everyone else

In their glory?

That's what I believe in

That's where I believe true abundance lies

Sure

We can have as much as we want for ourselves

But isn't it always better

When it's shared?

Aren't we always happier

To feel connected

To something more

Than just ourselves

It doesn't matter what it is

It can be art, a fantasy world or our community 

It can be one person, a child or children in general

Or just feeling understood

It doesn't matter who or what

That makes us feel connected

It's just

The feeling connected part

I understand the monks and gurus who go off to live a life in isolation

But they are all on that same quest for connection

Whether it's the ether or their monastery

What everyone is searching for is exactly the same

Connection

To feel meaningful

To feel like they matter

To someone or something

In my opinion

It doesn't matter what it is that makes you feel connected

It matters

That you do it

As often as you can

I think that we are all

Brilliant

Creative

Beautiful beings

And when we see it in others

I hope we can know

That we are just as worthy

And just as brilliant

And just as beautiful

As anyone we admire

I lost a lot of time and inspiration

So it can be hard

To believe in myself

But when I accepted my losses for what they were

I decided

That all I can do is start over

All I can do

Is be where I am now

And love myself harder than ever

I didn't deserve to be stripped of the worthiness I should have been born with

But it happened

I lost what I know was innately inside of me

So now

I love myself

For not knowing where to go

For not knowing my purpose

For not knowing

Anything

Except everything that hurt me

And everything I know

I don't want to be

We don't have to know where we're going

To know

That we are worthy

To know

That all we really need

Is already inside of us

In the things that light us up and set us on fire

That make us laugh and cry

The things

That make us feel something

It's not about being wrong or right

I'm certain now

It's just about feeling connected