Safe Home

I was told my whole life that it was my fault for not communicating

I know now that as a child 

I deserved to be seen 

And that words were never ever going to be enough

The more words I found, the more they were twisted against me

So now I understand manipulation well

I value words less

I know them too well

I’m tired of them

Exhausted by narratives and explanations and twisting and turning a person into how well they can form the right argument

I am so tired of human relations

My heart has always been bigger than my body so now I’ve succumbed and surrendered to it

My brain has been trained well but now I marry it with my heart so that my body can breathe

And breath feels so good in a body that can feel

I’ve found a safe home inside myself

And I don’t expect anyone to understand

But I'm glad I found it

I'm glad to have found a place to call home