Breaking

Feeling the weight of the world

I ask myself

What to do

With all this heaviness

What to do

As I watch trauma and abuse unfold before me

What do I do

With all this knowledge

Of human behavior

Only to see clearly

People's limits and lack of awareness

What to do

With all this pain

Some of it is mine

And some of it is the rest of the world's

And all I feel is heavy

I study psychology

For this very reason

Because the weight of the world

Always seems to get the best of me

So I study

And I learn

And I try to do better

While the world crumbles around me

And I ask myself

Is any of this

Worth

Anything?

I'm not sure

Are we just a blip

In the infinite vastness of the universe?

Does any of this really matter?

Or are we just desperate

To save what's left of our "civilization"

And our species

The world is dying

And as it dies 

Extensive abuses are given light

There's a reason we're here

There's a reason it's crumbling

Do you think

That any of us

Are exempt

From the atrocities committed?

We think that abuse and destruction is our nature

But it isn't

Our nature

Is kind and loving

We have become monsters

As a way to cope

With an abusive world

Where do we draw the line?

At what point

Do we admit

How awful our society has been?

There cannot be a healthy mindset that comes out of this

We have to relearn what that means

And as we do so

The horrors become wider and bigger

I came here to see

I know that much

I see so much

I want to leave

I don't want to be here

I don't want to see anymore

I want to go to sleep