Catharsis

I don't know if you've noticed

But the world is still going up in flames

I don't know if you've noticed

But

If you're a millennial, at least

You'll be starkly aware

That the world has been inflamed

Your whole life

And then I think

Well if it's been like this my whole life

It's also been this way for generations

It's hard for me to grasp

How people don't see it

People think we're repeating history

But history never ended

It's just been this way

Forever

Problem after problem after problem

War, disease, famine, depression

Like

How bad is our amnesia?

Are we going backwards

Or have we just been steadily declining

This whole time

Have people not been screaming

For decades?

For centuries?

Now new people are mad

And more people are mad

And privileged are screaming at privileged to recognize their privilege

Good lord

I'm a person of privilege

And I started raising my voice around 12

Now my peers are yelling at the top of their lungs

And it's not that I don't care

It's not that I don't care

It's just that

I question its purpose

I question all of us

Screaming into the ether

Trying to get everyone to see their point of view

Only to be boxed in and typecast

I say I'm tired and I know that doesn't sound fair

When you know

Activists have given their lives

For centuries

The thing is

Yes, the world is exhausting

But I was born exhausted

I grew up

Uncared for and neglected

And it's not that I don't care

It's that I need too much

I need too much for myself 

And while I see

Everyone fretting about where to put their care and concern

I'm concerned

That all of this fretting

Is getting us nowhere

When I started resting

I started observing

And when I started observing

It all began to sound like noise

Everyone hurling insults at each other

Jumping to conclusions and down each other's throats

Everyone yelling

Out of fear and pain

Everyone's so mad

And they should be

Every single one of us has a right to be mad at something

We're justified in our anger

Our pain

Our fear

Our hatred

Everyone is so justified

It's not that I don't care

It's just that

Yelling into the ether seems futile

Although cathartic

Definitely cathartic

We all need a void to scream into

And then maybe

We'd stop being so horrible to each other